Monday, September 8, 2008

Does anyone really support abortion? This Christian's perspective...

The election is right around the corner, and it's a big one. Americans turned out in droves not seen in a long time for the Primary process. Here in Minnesota, the state secretary is expecting an 80% turnout of registered voters for the general election. This hasn't happened since the 50's. For as many new ideas there are about the important issues facing the nation, there are some very familiar rumblings that are beginning to get louder with each day.
For all of the focus on platforms, and “where the candidates stand on the issues” that we seem to be concerned about during the early parts of a political process, it seems that inevitably as an election draws near, certain voices begin to try to limit the “truly important” issues to only 2 or 3 choice issues. Almost anyone could guess which ones I am talking about: Abortion, and gay marriage. Of the two, Abortion always seems to be the hottest issue.
Admittedly, this issue is most often brought up by conservatives, or Christians. No, in this day and age they are not one in the same. Sorry to burst anyone's bubble. I am a Christian, but I have to say before I go any further, that this phenomenon seriously distresses me. Without getting too off topic, let me just say that I don't understand how a Christian person could so easily, and so profoundly choose one or two issues facing this country as “the moral issues”, or even “the most moral issues.” God was never ONLY concerned about unborn children. Jesus was never ONLY concerned about children, or only concerned about money, or only concerned about following rules. If there was anything at all, anything that Jesus was ONLY concerned about, it was the heart of man; something far more unlikely to be so easily turned into a platform.
All this said, let me explain why I've felt compelled to write. This has been a very interesting election cycle to be a part of, and I don't mean from a, “Wow, did he really say that?” point-of-view. What's been most interesting is the varying reactions of many of my Christian friends, brothers and sisters, around the country. It seems that I am seeing different ideas, different perspectives, and different reactions from Christians than I have seen before. The more liberal Christians among us have fallen where it could largely be expected. But, those who have more classically been conservative seem to land all over the spectrum. Still, there are those perpetually conservative Christians who spell “Christian”, r-e-p-u-b-l-i-c-a-n, and who think of Republicans more like the army of God than as one perspective amongst many.

A hot button issue

It is the voices of this last group that compel me to finally put thoughts to paper about this election and it's candidates, at least where abortion is concerned. Why? Well, I've gotten a lot of emails about Barack Obama from different Christian friends. Some of them claimed he was a secret Muslim, a fake Christian, a wolf in sheep's clothing bent on the destruction of America from the inside out. Some touted how he hated America because he wouldn't wear a flag pin on his lapel. Some called him a terrorist. Lately, those emails, videos, etc. have begun to drum up the classic abortion issue that always surfaces at about this point in the election cycle.
I've heard comments from people too. Last week, I posted an article on my Facebook page that I thought was interesting. It was an ABC news piece about how numerous items from Sarah Palin's RNC speech were completely untrue. One person responded sarcastically that they sure weren't going to vote for someone who supported abortions. And, that statement is the most interesting statement that I've ever heard floating around in conversations... ever. And it got me thinking.
Of course, understanding the platform of the candidate I intend to vote for a little better than the average Joe, my first reaction was to want to explain that there is a difference between supporting abortions and not being willing to make them illegal. I don't think that one infers the other. But, that is really only scratching the surface. The label of “supporting abortion” is thrown about with such ease and frequency. If you are pro-choice, you are considered by those who are pro-life to support abortion. Republicans love to tag Democrats with the label. Nothing energizes the conservative base more than a war against liberal, extremist, gay, baby killers. But, I really have to ask...

Does anyone really support abortion?


Seriously, is there anyone out there thinking, “Hey, abortion is awesome! I'm so glad we can do it. I think I'm going to go get pregnant just so I can have one!” Does any politician really feel that if they could just make abortions popular that the world would be a better place?

I think common sense would dictate an easy NO answer to that question.

So, where does this assumption that anyone actually supports abortions come from? I can't truly give a researched answer. But, let me offer these observations, void of too much detail for brevity's sake. First, there may not be a more divisive issue in politics. For whatever reason, one side claims to be justified on moral grounds. And, there isn't much more that is firm and unbendable than someone who claims to have the ultimate morality. I'm a Christian myself, so I feel safe saying this. If you are a Christian, you probably feel pretty firm that you are right about what you believe. No one is going to tell you otherwise. And, if you have the truth, that means anyone who doesn't believe what you do, doesn't have the truth.
Even this characteristic of firm belief is interesting, though. As modern American Christians, our firm beliefs in certain moral absolutes often drive us away from intelligent, thoughtful conversations on those very matters. On the other hand, in their day Jesus and Paul were more than happy to engage in a spirited debate on purported enemy territory in order to mutually arrive at a good and true conclusion (which was always the truth that Jesus or Paul held true). Paul, in particular, made a habit of having debates with polytheistic Greeks and Romans on their terms. Sometimes these debates ended in floggings or arrest, and other times they ended in a mass of converts to “the Way.” Why don't we engage thoughtfully in these conversations today? Why does the mere mention of the abortion topic illicit level 4 defenses going into effect? If we are so sure that we are right, why not have an intelligent conversation? For that matter, why do we have to be right anyway? Jesus and Paul didn't go around beating into everyone else's head that they were right. They went about preaching the truth, discerning the truth, and discussing the truth because their interest was in the hearts of men being reconciled to God, not with the ego's of men acknowledging their folly. I digress.
As with many of the hot button issues, abortion is often used as a fear tactic by opposing sides. Republicans drive billboard trucks around city streets with pictures of bloody, broken, aborted fetuses on the side and tell you that this is what you get if you elect a Democrat president. Democrats tell you that if you elect a Republican that you should never get pregnant. If the pregnancy goes south, and your life is at risk from continuing it, that you won't have any choice. You'll have to just die and your baby will be put up for adoption. You have no rights to your own body.
Here's a reality check. Democrats don't just want to kill babies, and Republicans don't just want to let you die and take your rights of choice away. Who ever came up with such preposterous ideas anyway? Here's a snippet of perspectives on abortion from the current presidential candidates:

I’d love to see a point where Roe vs. Wade is irrelevant, and could be repealed because abortion is no longer necessary. But certainly in the short term, or even the long term, I would not support repeal of Roe vs. Wade, which would then force women in America to [undergo] illegal and dangerous operations.”

And if we can acknowledge that much, then we can certainly agree on the fact that we should be doing everything we can to avoid unwanted pregnancies that might even lead somebody to consider having an abortion.”

These are two quotes that offer positions on abortion, one from each of the current presidential candidates. I think you'd probably be surprised whose quote is whose. The first one belongs to John McCain; the second to Barack Obama. Regardless, nowhere in either of those comments do I hear any support for abortion anywhere. In fact, the sentiment from both candidates seems to be one of wishing for a world where we didn't even have to argue about abortion because no one was having one.
Here's some more reality about the abortion issue. First, it's not really about who supports abortion and who doesn't. It's a difference in the definition of what constitutes life, and which life is more important, that is more often the true issue with abortion. And, regardless of what your moral position is on abortion, this isn't an easy one to sort out. Consider this confession from Barack Obama:

I think it's very hard to know what that means, when life begins. Is it when a cell separates? Is it when the soul stirs? So I don't presume to know the answer to that question. What I know is that there is something extraordinarily powerful about potential life and that that has a moral weight to it that we take into consideration when we're having these debates.”


Let's not forget

Something interesting seems to happen quite a bit when the abortion debate begins to rage. The actual people, the real faces that we are arguing over begin to fade into the background. We aren't arguing about them, but about who's right, and who's wrong. The reality is, if we are going to argue at all, we should be arguing over them. They are the real face of this issue. Obama isn't the face of the issue, McCain isn't the actual person we are talking about. The unwed mothers, the teenager who was raped, and the woman with no husband and no health care are the real faces. And, when we even try to talk realistically about these actual people and their actual situations, our political rhetoric doesn't seem to cut it anymore.
Abortion is not some simple issue, some clear cut line between right and wrong. It may be something that none of us want to see, but it's by no means an easy decision. The issue is messy, it's emotional, and it's painful. Even those who claim to firmly support the pro-life movement have a hard time with the physical and emotional reality of the abortion issue. When asked by Alan Keyes, in a debate during the 2000 election Republican primary, about a hypothetical situation where his daughter got pregnant and was considering an abortion, John McCain said that the decision would be up to his daughter but that they would have a family conference. When the abortion issue hits close to home, it's suddenly not an easy decision.
In no way shape or form am I attempting to justify abortion. I am as against it as the next Christian. Instead, my hope is that we can realize a few things this election year before we all haul off and start jeopardizing our friendships by slinging biased and baseless accusations about one another 's political candidate of choice, and maybe bring a reduction to the seemingly endless flow of false and inflammatory information flying all of the Internet, particularly amongst Christian folks. That said, let me make a few personal statements.

Some personal thoughts

First, no one supports abortion. No one wants to see babies killed, at least not anyone who doesn't belong behind bars. No one is out in society planning a way for us to have more abortions. Politicians and average citizens alike, Christians and non Christians alike would sooner have a society where abortions never happened. Our approaches may largely differ, but neither of us want to see babies killed.
Next, abortion is by no means the only issue in an election. Neither is it the most important one, or of the primary moral importance over every other issue that we could address. In fact, at the most base level, no Christian person should be able to separate the issue of abortion from the issue of capital punishment. Both arguments flow out of a difference in understanding of the sanctity of life, and proponents on both sides have their justifications for their position. Why don't we spend at least as much time talking about how we kill people who have committed crimes?
Further, there are a myriad of other issues that are equally important to talk about, and ones that Jesus had much more to say about. Consider poverty for instance, or equality, justice, and how we spend our money. If Jesus wasn't merely making suggestions with what he traveled the countryside teaching, then how our government spends our money, how we treat the poor among us, and whether everyone living here is treated with the same respect are all equally moral issues that need to be addressed, lived out, and fought for by Christians.
Very little “progress” on abortion has been made in the last few decades since Roe v. Wade. Every election cycle, someone brings up the abortion issue, which becomes a firestorm of positioning and accusation. However, rarely any real change comes from the promises of the election debates. Politically speaking, choosing a side on abortion is suicide. A politician is generally going to alienate 50% of the population over an issue they aren't so sure about themselves.
Moreover, there isn't a candidate for president in this election who has a consistently pro-life platform or voting record. Obama voted as “present” on numerous abortion legislation votes in Illinois. McCain failed to vote on pro-life legislation that he supposedly co-sponsored, and failed to vote on a piece of congressional legislation stating that Congress agreed with the Supreme Court's decision in Roe v. Wade.
Lastly, and perhaps most importantly, the scare tactics, the pictures of dead fetuses, the screaming slurs between pro-life and pro-choice supporters, the emails concluding with a not prayerfully submitted “God help us if this guy gets elected” don't help anything at all. They don't get to the bottom of the issue. They don't solve any problems. They don't create space for courteous and intelligent conversation. People on opposite sides of the issue can scream at each other all they want, until they are blue in the face, and all it serves to do is more staunchly polarize the other side.
That is not our call as Christians. Instead, we are to love people, even our enemies, to seek the good of mankind, to offer hope and good news, to introduce people to Jesus' love, not to cast judgment for him. So here is a thought. Let's drop the ridiculous accusations and name calling of past election cycles that Christian people get so easily wrapped up in, and let's seek some real solutions. As the pastor at our church said last Sunday about a completely unrelated issue, “Stop having church, and learn to do good!”
I'm not necessarily against abortion legislation. But, I also don't think it would be that effective. We wouldn't tell an alcoholic to “just stop drinking” as a solution to his problem. And making drinking illegal would help him either. That is because drinking isn't the problem, but instead an indication of a problem. Whatever that alcoholic is running from that drives him into the bottle is the problem. And if we merely take away the poor man's outlet, we'll never solve his problem. Instead of fighting over which candidate is more pro-life and therefore somehow the preferable Christian candidate, or calling someone's salvation into question over their understanding of one single moral issue amidst thousands, how about if we really become the church and do something constructive about abortion? What if we looked at some of the contributing factors and started working on those?
I heard a pastor tell a story one time that I am about to butcher, but the profundity is not lost on me despite my fading recollection of the intimate details. He told a story of a group of missionaries that were visiting a village of native people in a forest somewhere, maybe in South America. They were learning the culture and making friends with the native people. One day, they heard women screaming from down at the river where they washed their clothes. When they went down to see what was going on, the women were frantic because there were bodies floating down the river. The bodies were those of some of the village children. The women screamed for help, trying to recover the children and save whichever ones they could. Many men rushed into the river to help, but a few began running up the shore. “Where are you going?” the women asked. “We need help saving these children!” The men replied, “We are going upriver to see who is throwing them in, and to stop them before they throw in anymore!”

Maybe, we could try to see what is contributing to abortions, and go up shore to see how to stop it, instead of making enemies of our brothers and sisters over how to save those who are already floating in the river.


Friday, April 18, 2008

Taking Jacob's lead

Wrestling with God can mean 2 different things. Wrestling with God, and wrestling with God. Most of the time, I'm not sure which one I'm doing, and therefore, whether i should be or not.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Friday, second week of lent devotion: Aware of "Lostness"

When the chief priests and Pharisees heard his parables, they realized that he was speaking about them. Matthew 21:45

Did you ever notice how lost you are when you are resentful? It’s a very deep lostness. The younger son gets lost in a much more spectacular way – giving into his lust and his greed, using women, playing poker, and losing his money. His wrongdoing is very clear-cut. He knows it and everybody else does too. Because of it he can come back, and he can be forgiven.
The problem with resentment is that it is not so clear-cut: it’s not spectacular and it is not overt, and it can be covered by the appearance of a holy life. Resentment is so pernicious because it sits very deep in you, in your heart, in your bones, and in your flesh, and often you don’t even know it is there. You think you’re so good. But in fact you are lost in a very profound way.

Thank you, Lord, for revealing my "lostness" to me. I know you are already leading me home.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Examining our hearts before one another

From today's lenten devotion: "Resentment is probably one of the most pervasive evils of our time. It's something that is very real, very pernicious, and very, very destructive. You and I are not free from it... Resentment is precisely the pitfall of the faithful, obedient, hardworking people who do the right thing. That's why it's important to talk about it. In so many ways you are a good person and you try to do the right thing... but each of you might examine how your life and relationships are wounded because of resentment buried in your heart."

I don't want to take away from the specific application to resentment and it's insidious affects on us. It is, in fact, something that "you and I are not free from..." But, what struck me the most was the part about examining our hearts. We have to do this regularly. See, we can do many good things, but in the course of it, harbor beliefs about something that are neither accurate or healthy. But, I think we have to examine our hearts before one another for true perspective. How will we, without fail, be able to realize our false beliefs on our own. If we have believed that a particular belief or action was o.k., then how can we determine that it is not if it is not specifically addressed in the bible?

Resentment is one of those things that we harbor without realizing, or put up with by calling it something else, like mere disagreement. But, there are millions of secret beliefs that we might carry that are robbing life from us. We need 2 things if we are going to be whole, Christian people. 1: We need to be willing to examine our hearts against God's word, and in the presence of our trusted Christian brothers and sisters. In this way, we can't fool ourselves. 2. We need to be willing to accept that we can be, and often are, wrong about something. We need to be willing to put down our pride enough to receive an exhorting word from a trusted brother or sister in Christ. This is often painful. But, as Proverbs 27 says: Wounds from a friend are better than many kisses from an enemy.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Reflections on Les Miserables

So, I missed yesterday's lent devotional post because we had group. Maybe we should just plan on taking a short time for the next few weeks to read the short Thursday devotion at small group?! Anyhow, I loved watching Les Miserables with you all again last night. It's such a powerful story on so many levels: forgiveness, righteousness, resisting temptation, the power of grace, selfless love. The man that Jean Valjean became is nothing short of a treatise on the Beatitudes that we have been reading.

We ran out of time last night because we started a little late, and the movie was long, so we didn't get to discuss our reactions at all. What did everyone think? Were there any parts that struck you this time around? How did you understand the theme of grace vs. vengeful justice? What did you think of the end of the movie?

Let's hear your thoughts! I'll try to get back to the daily lenten discussion posts tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Wednesday, First Week of Lent - Just Return... Again

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity... Psalm 51:2

Have a sense of compassion for your own journey, for your own leaving and returning, a sense of, "Yes, yes, I'm loved when i take a risk. I'm loved even when i make a mistake because, somehow, it's an expression of my desire to claim myself. I did it in a wrong way, but i didn't have any other way to do it at that moment." Otherwise you start hurting yourself and putting yourself down and then the return becomes guilt-ridden and then God becomes a dark God who says, "Heh, heh. I always knew you would need me again."
That's not what God is saying. God is not sitting there laughing that you couldn't do it on your own and you finally had to confess you needed a parent's love. That's not the God we are talking about. Our God is much more intimate and loving. Our God waits with compassion and tenderness.

Your goodness, Lord, draws me to you. Thank you for offering me forgiveness.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Tuesday, First Week of Lent devotion - The Son is Allowed To Go

I sought the Lord and he answered me... Psalm 34:4

The love of the father embraces not just the return of the son but also the leaving of his child. That's really important: the whole movement of leaving and returning is a movement done under the loving eyes of the father. The father does not say, "Don't go." That's not the spirit of the story. The spirit of the story is, "Yes, son, go. And you will be hurt and it will be hard and it will be painful. And you might even lose your life, but I can't hold you from taking that risk. And when you come back, I am here for you, just as I am also here for you now."
In a very deep way, you in your life, are always leaving and returning. It's not just a one time event; it's an ongoing experience. So today, get in touch with your leavings and your returnings. I believe that in a very deep sense, one has to be convinced of God's love in order to take the risk of leaving once in a while. There are moments when you may want to take a step back and go off for a while, and then come back. Try to believe that God loves you as a person who's leaving and returning. Try to believe God awaits your return.

Thank you, Father, for letting me go and taking me back.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Monday, 1st week of Lent devotion - Love and Relationships

You shall be holy, for I the Lord your God am holy... Leviticus 19:2

All our struggles in relationships are connected with what I would call the relationship between the "first love" and the "second love." The first love is from God, who loved us before we could love each other. The second love is from our parents, brothers and sisters, and friends, and it is an expression of the first love. Sometimes we expect from the second love what only the first love can give. That's why we experience anguish. My personal struggle has always been that I expected a first love from someone who could only give a second love.
And as soon as you demand a first love, an unconditional, total, self-giving love, from another human being, limited in ability to give and receive, you will be disappointed. Quite quickly you can even become violent because you expect from a person what that person cannot give. The other person has no choice but to back off, cut loose, and perhaps get angry and feel guilty.

Gracious God, may I remember that the only perfect love comes from you. May I humbly offer my own limited love to those around me.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

A "gracious" perspective on the parable of the ungrateful servant

From Phillip Yancy:

"It was altogether in character, then, for the scrupulous apostle Peter to pursue some mathematical formula of grace. 'How many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me?' he asked Jesus. 'Up to seven times?' Peter was erring on the side of magnanimity, for the rabbis in his day had suggested three as the maximum number of times one might be expected to forgive.
'Not seven times, but seventy-seven times," replied Jesus in a flash. Some manuscripts have 'seventy times seven,' but it hardly matters whether Jesus said 77 or 490: forgiveness, he implied is not the kind of thing you count on an abacus.
Peter's question prompted another of Jesus' trenchant stories, about a servant who has somehow piled up a debt of several million dollars. The fact that realistically no servant could accumulate a debt so huge underscores Jesus' point: confiscating the man's family, children, and all his property would no make a dent in repaying the debt. It is unforgivable. Nevertheless the king, touched with pity, abruptly cancels the debt and lets the servant off scot-free.
Suddenly, the plot twists. The servant who has just been forgiven seizes a colleague who owes him a few dollars and begins to choke him. "Pay back what you owe me!" he demands, and throws the man into jail. In a word, the greedy servant is an ingrate.
Why Jesus draws the parable with such exaggerated strokes comes clear when he reveals that the king represents God. This above all should determine our attitude towards others: a humble awareness that God has already forgiven us a debt so mountainous that beside it any person's wrongs against us shrink to the size of anthills. How can we not forgive each other in light of all God has forgiven us?" -What's So Amazing About Grace?

I saw this coming as I read it. This is painful to read. As much as I have a hard time receiving it, I love Jesus' forgiveness. Yet, I am less excited about giving it. What lack of understanding I must have to joyfully stand at church on Sunday receiving God's unmerited grace and forgiveness for an unrepayable debt, but to struggle so much with giving forgiveness for a very forgivable debt that doesn't even belong to me. ("Against you, and you alone, have I sinned God...")

First Sunday of Lent devotion - Jesus: The Father's Portrait

He was in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan... Mark 1:13

The three temptations in the desert were precisely to choose the "upward way." Be relevant: do something that the world can praise you for like making bread out of the stones. Be spectacular: jump from the tower so that everybody can see you and you can be on television because you're so influential, so important. Be powerful: kneel before me and I will give you dominion over all the lands. But Jesus said, "No," because he knew that God's way is the way of the poor. "Blessed are the poor. Blessed are the humble. Blessed are the poor of heart. Blessed are the meek. Blessed are the peacemakers."
Here we have a self-portrait of Jesus that is also a reflection of the Father, because "who sees me sees the Father." If you read the Beatitudes, you see Jesus' face and you see through Jesus' face the love of his Father. Humble. Poor. Meek. Peacemaker. Hungry for justice and peace. It is so important for you to see that Jesus wants you to be more and more like that. That's the image of God that appears in flesh among us. That is our way. And that's the way to glory.

Jesus, my Savior and my brother, may I be transformed by your grace.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Saturday after Ash Wednesday devotion - Let the Father Forgive

I have come to call not the righteous but sinners to repentance
Luke 5:32


It's a real discipline to allow yourself to be forgiven, to be healed, to be given something. To believe that God wants to wipe out all your guilt and give you a new heart and a new spirit is a challenge. Can you receive this truth? Obviously, the receiving is something that lives itself out in your family and in your community. Living together with others you discover that you have some talents, and others have other talents, and you need each other. In a way, what happens in the family, the receiving of gifts from each other, becomes a reflection of the great giving and receiving of God's faithful love.
It's hard to live in close relationships and to discover that the greatest gift is often to receive. It means you give up being in control and respond by saying, "Yeah, i need your help." When you make that conversion from being the strong one to being the one who receives, then real mutuality grows and love becomes real and visible.

I know i have a hard time accepting help, Lord, especially from those closest to me. May your grace open my heart to all the good gifts you want me to have.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Friday after Ash Wednesday devotion

Then your light shall break forth like the dawn, and your healing shall spring up quickly... Isaiah 58:8

In the light of God's love and forgiveness, you are encouraged to discover the part of you that you keep hidden to yourself. The more you discover God's light, the more you discover in yourself the need for that light. It's like the revelation of, "I love you so much i want to touch you in all the places where you are lost so that you will discover not just your lostness but also in how many places i want to find you."
This exercise is prayer: to sit in the presence of God and to say, "I know you are a loving parent but i just don't believe it. I often think that you are out to get me, but today I'm going to stay here in your loving presence, and I'm going to present myself to you." Heart speaks to heart.
This is not to say, "Well, you'd better start thinking about how awfully dissipated you are and how awfully resentful you are." But, it is to say, "When you're in touch with your dissipation and your resentment, you don't have to run away because it is precisely in those places that God waits to touch you more deeply and to heal you."

Forgiving father, help me to trust that you will lead me to healing where i most need it.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

And so it begins...

It's Ash Wednesday. I was reminded by people walking around downtown St. Paul with black stuff on their foreheads. Tomorrow at small group I will be passing out devotionals for lent and we will begin the lenten period. Have you thought and prayed about your fast yet? We will be sharing those things tomorrow, and praying together to kick off lent. I am excited that God will do great things in us in the next 1 1/2 months. I am already struggling with the thought of giving up certain things, but i know that is evidence that giving them up will make more room for Jesus.

Tomorrow also marks the day that we kick this discussion forum into full swing. Some days our discussions will be right out of our devotionals, and other times will be other thoughts. I am looking forward to making Jesus more of a part of our daily discussion with one another.

Blessings, and see you tomorrow!

Jimbo

Monday, February 4, 2008

Duality with God?

I read a book yesterday, just a short 570 pages. It's been a while since i read a book all the way through, and even longer since i read one in less than a week. This was an all time record for me. I read about 30 pages on Saturday night, and finished it on Sunday between playing with my daughter, and taking a trip up to the in-laws for Super Bowl Sunday.

That i read the book that fast is a testament to what it stirred in me. The book was a bit of a treatise on the relationship between science and religion (particularly the Holy Catholic Church), though fiction. The story was riveting, and what i felt left with was surprising. Despite reading a secular story, obviously fiction, the story left me remembering the mystery of God. It'd be hard to explain why without recapping the story step by step, but this is what i felt after completing the book.

I was thinking about my re-realized sense of God's mystery this morning. "This is exactly what i need," I thought. A little mystery always stirred my heart towards God. I am fatally flawed in the attention department, and the mundane often finds me wondering to something else to excite me. But, God's mystery! This is what i need to draw close again! Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I've been entranced by God's mystery before, and it always wears off. What keeps me in the times when mystery is hidden? Well, frankly not much. These are always the times i wrestle with my motivation. But, the times i press through, it is one thing that keeps me clinging tight: Discipline.

My wife would tell you this is not my strongest suit, and she would be right. There are many different types of Christian people in the world, and I think God wants it that way. I will take the liberty here of oversimplifying them into 2 groups: those who relish God's mystery, and those who swear by discipline to his principles. Fewer of us, it seems, find a relaxing spot somewhere in between the two. We usually have a bent one way or the other. There are those that bounce from church to church looking for the new excitement. There are those who go to the same church for 50 years, and resist any change in principle or protocol. God loves them both, I am sure.

Still, driving to work this morning, thinking about my own fascination with God's mystery, i couldn't help but also realize that without discipline, my awe of God's mystery wasn't worth much. As soon as the awe of the mystery wore off, I'd be back to trying hard not to wander off. The flip side had to be true also, then. Rabid discipline to God's precepts without a sense of his presence or mystery, without a sense of awed inspiration seemed completely emtpy also. Wasn't that what the Pharisees were accused of anyway? Being well polished on the outside, but void of God's love on the inside?

It seems that perhaps the most well rounded lovers-of-God amongst us, despite a bent one way or the other, have a healthy awe for the mystery of God driving them to discipline, or a discipline to God's word that is reinforced by a sense of His gravitas.

This is interesting in light of the fact that God created so many things with opposites that seem to hold everything in balance: light and dark, good and evil, heaven and hell, the now and the not yet...

Maybe i am just overstating the obvious.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Slow and Steady?

I was reading an old tale with Sophia this morning that i think you will all remember. It was the story of the tortoise and the hare. As you recall, the moral of the story is: Slow and steady wins the race.
Reading the story, how the hare would race on ahead with his speed that he was so proud of, then get bored and would stop to show off, made me think a lot about my own life. I wondered, can i draw a spiritual parallel here? This sounds very "proverbs-esc." Is there something to being steady, even if you are slower and not as flashy as everyone else? I think the world is all about flashy and fast. Heck, I am about fast a lot, and flashy sometimes. But, do we sacrifice consistency, and quality when we choose fast n' flashy over slow and steady?

What does my response to this question say about my walk with God? What does it reflect about what i think about other people?

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Questions thread


If, during the course of our conversations, you've got a question about something that doesn't directly pertain to what we are talking about, but that you'd be interested in discussing, post the question here, and I'll put some of them up as topics for discussion.

How this will work

Hello small group friends. This blog has been created as a result of our conversations from tonight's small group. I will post comments, questions, or thoughts here at least once a week. Hopefully, this will give us all a resource for ongoing application of the things we have been discussing at small group, or at least simply remind us that we talked about something last Thursday. ;) Any of you are free to comment as a part of the ongoing conversation, or whatever you want to say.

If you have a question, post it in the comments and we will discuss that too! When lent officially starts, i will try to post thoughts or questions about the daily devotion here also so we can work through lent together.

I'm looking forward to hungering and thirsting for righteousness together in the days, weeks, and months to come!

Jim